My friend passed away from an E overdose early this morning

Just a reminder, make sure you get your tabs from a reliable source and be safe. When you put any unknown substance into your cake hole, you risk death. U.S.P drugs and organic based botanicals are the only things that are relatively safe for human consumption. Take heed and mark these words from one who knows exactly of what she speaks of.

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Promoting HIV Prevention and risk reduction

For the last two months I have been actively participating in an HIVy 101 course at the Children's Hospital of Los Angeles. The goals is to educate youth about HIV and how to reduce the likely hood of contracting the virus.


On my way home from todays course I decided to fly a sign and educate anyone that cared to listen while also passing out condoms, lube, and pamphlets. I spent the majority of my day at the Beverly / Vermont metro/bus stop.

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Unwanted Compliments

I have recently rejoined the dating world after a self imposed hiatus. One of the things I find bothersome is when a prospective date will comment of my looks before getting to know me. It makes it seem, to me anywas, he is shallow and/or just wants sex. I am talking about comments along the lines of telling me i have nice curves or a nice butt. I can handle them saying i look nice tonight or nonspecific things. I am not comfotable with comments on my looks that most men make and have told them so but they don't listen or apologize and say something along the lines of but you are sexy...

Am I being a total prude or do other women feel similar? How do you deal with it?

Shopping for bananas :3

Here is me fooling around in West Hollywood. My roommate snapped the pic. What are the craziest stunts you have done in public?

Am I the only one?

I constantly feel like this lonely creature among a pack of the uncaring. Constantly ridiculed, questioned, and neglected by the world will it ever get better?


I jumped around colleges a lot before I settled and graduated. All said and done, I ended up with a little over 100,000 in student loan debts, the majority of which is private. Two months before I graduated Sallie Mae (who hold the majority of my debt) stopped all consolidation of private loans due to the economy. Combine that with 2 months of missed credit card payments (2 months and my credit score droped 180 points) and I couldn't find anyone to consolidate my loans even when I was employed full time. I'm living at home, unemployed, scraping by doing freelance web design and development but its just not enough. I've managed to pay half of them so far but the other have are approaching default. I have collectors calling me 14 hours a day 7 days a week. My family is poor and has always been poor so there is no financial support from them outside of a roof over my head. Every day that goes by I can just feel myself slipping deeper and deeper into depression, an issue I've had since I was a  child.
I'm not looking for pity. I signed the papers and I brought this upon myself. I was a stupid kid, but thats not an excuse. I need to take responsibility and fix this myself but I just don't know what to do. It's become harder and harder to motivate myself because I truly feel like I have no hope any longer. I send out applications both for industry jobs and shit jobs and there is just nothing. I just can't deal with this any longer. Honestly the only reason I haven't put a bullet in my head is because some of my loans (the ones I have been paying) have family cosigners and I cannot allow my horrible decisions to affect them. I hate my life and I hate myself for what i've done to it.
Any advice is welcome, be it financial, personal or otherwise.

I am super horny ALL the time!

I have a problem, the problem is I need sex. Ever since I was young I have had an over active sex drive. Weed hits me hard and even though I am normally hypersensitive to touch, it causes me to feel like
I am rolling.

How do you deal with this?

Here is my coping device when no one is available to help me!