Pretentious Diary Entry #8 "woop woop I am high"

So I have been obsessing over what is wrong with myself for the last few weeks.

I see that I should stop trying to look for something that is wrong when there is nothing there.

Alex, a friend that was staying with us recently due to being homeless, was hired for a full-time office job in philly. :3

Pretentious Diary Entry #7 "Oh joy"

I have not had a single interview yet, no source of income, missed class due to illness, have court costs, and a hospital bill.

:[

I must not be trying hard enough.

I cannot focus.

I hate me.

Pretentious Diary Entry #6 "Good Gift"

Negative habitual thoughts are invading my head again. They are difficult to ignore, because they are far more intense.


Anxiety issues.


Janessa's gift ideas:

• Earrings, hand made
• Crayon lego blocks
• stress ball toys
• ruffle + scarf
• bag/bp
• LOL irony buttons
• beanie
• clth esq.

Pretentious Diary Entry #5 "unMOTIVATED"

As you can guess I have been extremely unmotivated as of late. My Music Appreciation class was very interesting and seems promising. Dr. Henderson, my professor, seems to be able to connect with us while avoiding the cliche, boring, monotone professor stereotype that many of my previous teachers were oh so able to fulfill.

My anti-depressant does not seem to be working very effectively  and I am still self-medding with cannabis. Anxiety, stress, and procrastination/apathy plague me.

I am still attempting to join English and Math courses, but most classes are already pretty full.